Clandestine Meetings (Day 3)

After a day of listening to paper presentations, a secret meeting at He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named's place.


A funny, brief interlude: the tour agent at the hotel lobby chatted with me as I was waiting to be picked up.


Then Maritess and I met Lee (Malaysian?), Taufik (Malaysian?), Joseph (Singaporean) and Eugene (Singaporean?). Joseph is funny. A Singaporean who's down on Singapore.


I think I must've sounded like a bigot to Lee and Taufik. Hey, but they were asking about first impressions. Actually what I answered weren't first impressions but expectations.... Hmmmm...


Take-away thought for the night: I still forget that sometimes, He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named can be really horrible.

Lost

... is how I feel.


There's more to say, except I'm not in the mood to elaborate. Because it's almost midnight, and I have to be at work by 7:30 AM. But part of what scares me is this: I don't know how to burn enough to keep at this. Regular job during the day, "pet project" at night after work. So it's like 17 hours of work a day. Well, not straight, but it takes the zing out of the work when you start something you know you won't finish soon but is needed ASAP. And staying after hours isn't the solution because it just ruins your head for the day job.


What a problem.


I want a solution. Sometimes a solution crosses my mind... but I'm afraid to consider it.


I want to find my passion.


Oh wherefore art thou passion project?


I want to know what it's like to never work a day for the rest of my life because I love what I'm doing.

High-Lows

And in the spirit of "The Story of Us," today's high-lows:

1.) High: Indian priest classmate in Experimental Designs always helps our professor erase the board. It's really nice of him. Ang sweet :)

2.) High: Officemate's 2-year old son was chattering away at work today. Ang cute :)

3.) Low: Fearing that I may be responsible for blowing the circuits in Rm 203. I think I forgot to unplug the OHP after my class report last Tuesday. The short-circuit was said to have happenned Thursday. Please let it not be me!!! Ang malas :(

4.) Low: Telecon. Of course. For the simple reason that he's there. That's all it takes. Ang stupid :(

Superman's Angle

Last night as I was watching a trailer of the new Batman series, I wondered out loud how they would remake Superman for the new generation of kids who automatically think having angst is cooler. Today, Rudd sends me a text message on the answer:

"I know what Superman's angst is!.... lost love and how to save this planet he calls home..."

Ah, ok. And apparently Kate Bosworth will play Lois Lane. Weird. I'd rather have Jessica Alba. Hahaha.

Then later today, Judel tells me that apparently, we will be meeting He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named on December 4.

I'm scared.

I dozed off at my desk with that last thought and woke up depressed.